life without direction

my life is so directionless now..
fulls of different kind of feelings..
im going bec uniten soon..
1 more week to count down..
i supposed to be very happy coz get too see all my frens, busy with studies and so on..
but suddenly i feel so lazy.. feel like there is no destiny in my life..
i dunno y im always moody..
perhaps there are severals reasons that cause it..
i got so much feelings to write out..
but not now..

..changing..

3 months holidays..

it makes me feel so tired compared to those days in campus..

a friend told me..i need to recharge my battery during holidays to continue my long long journey in future..

ya...he is right..

there are a lot a lot of things happened..

most of them are really unexpected...

but i gained lots of experience, lessons, and different kinds of feelings thru this boring holidays..

even thou..i gotta thank every single person who is accompanying me to go thru all my problems...

feelings come and go whenever they wish..

same goes to people around me..

start to miss my lovely friends who had just started their journey to another level of journey..

they are alright and happy all this while..

but so far, i have learnt to be independent and tough..

although its a hard task for me, but i put lots efforts to make it happens..

no matter what im facing,

sad, happy, stressed, hurt, sweet or bitter..

welcome them sincerely..

because they are part of my life

without them, my life is gonna be tasteless and colourless..

but its painful when we try to forget someone who had crafted in our heart..

just to make things right..

i wish im a lousy battery after all..

* for those who watched 8tv at 6pm , im sure they clearly understand * =)

mirror mirror on the wall..

am i a dark devil who creates a lot of troubles and scare ppl away?