feelings~

As usual, i cannot concentrate study.. *sigh*
Thus,im spending time writting this rather than reading my notes given in lectures..
my test is just around the corner, which falls on 8th of August, this coming friday..
it's very soon, but i still cannot get into my study mood..
i don't even feel nervous of facing it..i dont know why..
may be there are a lot of things bothering me, like one of my friends said..
i wish i could be like those smart people who do not need so much efforts in readings.. smart people usually are fast learners,they understand and learnt new things very fast..once they get the concepts, they can apply them on any questions given in the tests..

i started to miss home, miss my parents who have worried for me so much lately, i gotta apologize for being so silly.. i feel thankful i got them as my parents even i disagree with their decisions and actions sometimes..
but im borned to be their daughter, i gotta love them as parents too..
miss my stupid little sis =p

i just gave her a call, and she was like so shock and kinda blur..haha so cute..then asked me when i going back home..
now it has became a habit for me to call her whenever i feel im lonely and directionless..

but she never call me or text me when she needs help from me, i guess she doesnt want to disturb me..
so everytime also wait until i call her and ask, then she got a list which notes down every things that she wants me to buy for her..
but she is just so shy to dial my number haha..cute sis..
*haha i know you miss me too,but you are shy to tell me xD *
*mumy told me one haha xD*
life is boring, isn't it?
we live to die..isn't it?
end~

Long and sleepless night..

Its 5.22am in the morning already, but im still awake, listening to "No Promises" while typing this..
May be i get used to sleep late, or in another word, sleep "early" since it is morning already..
When you are worrying for someone who is very important for you, you tend to stay awake..and even if you fall asleep already,you tend to wake up every hour just to make sure he is alright..although you are so tired so headache..
or that is just to fill up the boredom and the loneliness in heart..
sometime i wish i could be some those dead materials rather than be a human who fulls of feelings..
first of all, we spend more time sitting in front of computer more than anything else..
sometime, all these technology stuffs will make you go crazy till you forget everything includes people around..
but ever, anyone makes you go crazy for him or her till you forget everything around...?
the answer is yes..
but it doens't stay long, because human is not as interesting as those technologies..
human is unique but technology is improving as time goes by..
therefore, we gotta accept the facts that we are always left behind by our friends, family, or our loves one..
not they do not love you,
its actually, they tend to forget you and all other things also..
So, don't be so sad for it..
all we need to do is to make sure we are not one of them, and always make people around you feel you are always right there for them every single moment..
Treat people the way you want people to treat you..
Never feel blue or upset just because you feel you are ignored..it is just one of the emotions that will cause unhappy things to happen..but inversely you should feel kinda lucky because you are a normal human..it is the most perfect among the imperfect..as human is not perfect..
kinda blur while typing this..
I can hear birds singing outside my window, i can hear the pointer of the clock keeps moving..
ahh...the dawn has fallen...
it is time to hide into my blanket and continue my journey to the wonderful dreamland..

p/s: Im yawning all the way typing this >,<

end~

life without direction

my life is so directionless now..
fulls of different kind of feelings..
im going bec uniten soon..
1 more week to count down..
i supposed to be very happy coz get too see all my frens, busy with studies and so on..
but suddenly i feel so lazy.. feel like there is no destiny in my life..
i dunno y im always moody..
perhaps there are severals reasons that cause it..
i got so much feelings to write out..
but not now..

..changing..

3 months holidays..

it makes me feel so tired compared to those days in campus..

a friend told me..i need to recharge my battery during holidays to continue my long long journey in future..

ya...he is right..

there are a lot a lot of things happened..

most of them are really unexpected...

but i gained lots of experience, lessons, and different kinds of feelings thru this boring holidays..

even thou..i gotta thank every single person who is accompanying me to go thru all my problems...

feelings come and go whenever they wish..

same goes to people around me..

start to miss my lovely friends who had just started their journey to another level of journey..

they are alright and happy all this while..

but so far, i have learnt to be independent and tough..

although its a hard task for me, but i put lots efforts to make it happens..

no matter what im facing,

sad, happy, stressed, hurt, sweet or bitter..

welcome them sincerely..

because they are part of my life

without them, my life is gonna be tasteless and colourless..

but its painful when we try to forget someone who had crafted in our heart..

just to make things right..

i wish im a lousy battery after all..

* for those who watched 8tv at 6pm , im sure they clearly understand * =)

mirror mirror on the wall..

am i a dark devil who creates a lot of troubles and scare ppl away?